I received an email today which I think is very meaningful…SMILE 
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it’s harder every time. You’ll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You’ll fight with your best friend. You’ll blame a new love for things an old one did. You’ll cry because time is passing too fast, and you’ll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you’ve never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you’ll never get back.
Don’t be afraid that your life will end,
be afraid that it will never begin.
Is there anything wrong for being nice to everyone??…Someone at work told me today that I am not normal…I am not who I really am…in fact people think that I am fake and putting a mask in front of me…and they are people who are talking behind me…Really hurt with those words T.T…
I am really who I am…I was taught to be friendly and nice…I was taught to give out more than receive…Dun be rude in front of people…Dun show emotion in front of others…Try to be patient, calm and forgiving when bad things happen…Smile at people…
I treat everyone at work the same way…but for some reason I click better with my office colleagues than my lab colleagues…I am not loud people…in fact I admit that I am quite a boring person…People dun like to tell me gossip or talk crap with me because I have no response to them…I will just listen quietly and then keep to myself…or just smile and listen like a mute person…I also dun wan to be such a boring person…but I just dunno what to say to response back to them…I am just very stupid in creating story and talking crap…even harder when I need to say all this in english…
Apparently people like to gossip with people about someone and then expecting the gossip to be spread back to the person who they are gossiping…(sounds confusing???)…So thats why bad people always are more welcome than the nice one…
Well…I will always be who I really am…If someone cannot accept me…thats fine…The mouth who talked or complained about me is with the other person…I have no right to stop or control it…but I can choose not to think or be affected too much…appreciate those who accepted me as who I am and stayed away those who cannot accept me as who I am….so just let it be…
In a few weeks time, I will be transfering to a new institute…experimental therapeutic centre…full time in the lab which means will need to spend most of the time with lab colleagues than my current office colleagues…actually I feel very sad to transfer…at least now, whenever I feel uncomfortable in the lab, I can easily have my quiet time at my cubicle in the office or chat with my office colleagues…but not anymore after I transfer…I am really glad to have so many nice office colleagues around me who listen and give me support all the time…
Well, I guess I will not care so much…I hav so many love ones around me…my family and frens at home…I am glad to have them…:)
Work recently has been very tough…There are more work and also more interaction with my boss after my senior left the group…I dun mind the work…but I find it stressful when I am not presenting well in front of my boss…I always gave him a wrong answer when he try to test my knowledge and I always embarass myself in front of him…sometimes I think I better shut up because I say too much and I sounded very stupid…I started to doubt my capability in doing science and I think my boss started to doubt my capability too…until he has to go to the lab with me to make sure I did things in a right way…Guess I just have to be extra hardworking now to learn and read more…
The difficult part is not only learning the science…but learning to deal with difficult people at the same time…my EQ has always been very low…I just dunno how to deal with difficult people…People who are slow; impatient; gossipers; unfriendly; rude; with motives etc…I just dunno who to trust and who not to trust…People surrounding me just driving me crazy…I really wan to go home be with those that I really feel comfortable with…I dun want to play people minding game…I cannot…:(
