Whats next?? Everything just went wrong for the past few days…no…it started from my printer…then my pc…and this morning is my handphone…so whats next…all my stuffs are ending their life span….is time to go home…but hang on still few more months to go…so please hang on…with so many things went wrong…I just cant concentrate but just worry whats next and get really emotional and really want to go home, HUh!!…feel really pressure cause lots of work undone or not doing it properly….Bad luck is approaching again, I know it happens once a while, I accept it….but I pray it will go faster….
Archive for October, 2005
31
Oct
Go home~~
Mum, I want to dedicate this song to you. I miss you so much here and I am really looking forward to go home and be with you all the time..You are my great mum and love you so much….Whenever I listen to this song, I am thinking of you, putting lots of effort to raise me up..be with me when I am down and never giving up supporting me…
"You Raise Me Up" (originally by Josh Gorban, now in Westlife new album)
When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up… To more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up… To more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up… To more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up… To more than I can be.
You raise me up… To more than I can be.
Heard this phrase from the radio and felt it is a good phrase to be wise…
"Think before action and only do it after you have thought about it"….SMILE 
24
Oct
Printer Day~~
Today is a printer day for me…Well, I supposed to have a meeting at 11am this morning. I had prepared all the stuffs over the weekend to present at the meeting…slept really late yesterday and decided to print them out this morning…My printer printed halfway and collapsed!! Some parts in my printer got old and sick and need replacement :(…Huh!! the other half of my work are coloured and need to be coloured..uni printer no colour ("lau ya’). So what to do??..first thing is of course need to get a new one…but izzit worth?? cause going home next year..so?? Rang my mum and asked her what she think?? Hmmm…she said no worries lo…if is needed, then hav to get lo ++ home printer also not very good liao…So is time to get a new printer~~
Many people do involve in helping me hehe So I have to mention them in this blog…Melanie, taught me to use ebay..I found one epson service/repair program software for 99p, I decided to give it a go…but sadly the person until now havent sent the software to me but at least I know how to use ebay now (I opened account for ages for didnt use hehe)…Chenglian, chat with me on msn giving me some support hehe Yun, chat with him on msn..ask him where is good place to get one…he offered help ~~ Goffrey, rang me and gave me some advices ~~ Finally everything comes into conclusion with the help from Kenneth and Alice..I rang them to ask a good place to get printer…what a surprise that alice said she has a spare one cause her daughter, Rebekah, not using that anymore….so great!!…they sent it to me around 3pm..I installed it and finally print out the other half…but how about the meeting?? Hehe…I sent it out by email …The whole day was just trying to get a new printer..where and what printer to get…huh!! Tired!! Nwm~~ live a day @ a time SMILE
09
Oct
Cry ~~
I am not sad nor too happy…just feel a bit of tightness, emptiness and loneliness in my heart…can cry be the cure of it? I wish I can cry out loud to relief all this unnessary feelings…but I just couldnt cry anymore…Is that means I am strong now? Is that because I have been thru so much that all my tears have left me? Is that because I have get use to my life now and there is nothing special that could make me burst into tears? Is that because I am stubborn and stress as sewlan said? (Quote: i think u seldom cry nowaday, dont know u become more stuborn or u dont cry because of stress?) I am sure there is no answer to all these questions..cause I am just being silly to ask! Perhaps everyone will feel like that at some point in their life because of the routiness, boredom, loneliness, no excitement, and etc……will u? Well, just have to live a day @ a time…SMILE
I am so bored and lazy!! Lots of work just pilling up!! Poster.. Essays..lots of them!! Project work..Sob Sob!! I dun wan to study anymore…writing crap english is so much easier…writing proper english is real hard…
Staring at those works make me sick…heart pumping like basketball bouncing in my heart…oh no..heart attack!! I guess I am scare !! Everything seems so hard…..
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I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight
And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me ~~~~~~
Time is flying, I guess is much quicker than the bird flying freely around the blue sky…is 2am now..and what am I actually doing and still not sleep yet!! ~~ Was actually very tired especially the brain but still dun feel like lying on the bed yet…probably will do in a about 30 minutes time as there will be lecture tomorrow at 10am, promise hannah, my flatmate to gym after the one hour lecture at 11am and lab at 2pm…
Never did much today and the time had gone so quickly…lectures the whole morning, lab in the afternoon and by the time get home was already 4pm…clean the flat for a bit and then hannah came in and hav a chat for a while…looked at the clock and is already 6pm…Huh!! Where was the time fly to?? Well, something that I cant control…But at least was able to get some of my work done during the night…reading lots of papers on steroid to get the whole idea again and by 12pm..manage to get the whole idea on steroid..hopefully will be able to write the essay tomorrow with my own words!! Finger cross hehe…Haha..in between doing work…did chill out a bit too!! Great!!..Eventhough Hannah was just next door…we were "msning" each other..sending the cute emotions to her and just talked lots of rubbish…then she went out to her frens downstair…well~~ work continued…till 12am….and guess what?? I still have energy to do some relaxation exercises…did lots of stretching…cool!! never been doing it for ages..luckily some still managed hehe..and here comes 2.30am and I guess need to go to bed now….good night/morning…hehe!! hannah is back…
Well, 10 minutes to go and weekend will be gone ~~ everyone will be back to routine again with work and study!!…
1/2 of my saturday was used to stuck in front of my pc, fixing my old buddy!! Huh!! luckily can be fixed finally but took ages….and was quite panic!! cause without my buddy I dun think I can survive here!! another half of the day was stucked in the lab..4 hours dealing with blood!! turning the whole blood culture which is red to brown then to white to get the white blood cells!!..Hmm…what did I do at nite?? dreaming…trying to do essay but dunno how to start?? walking in and out my room, thinking of idea..sob sob!! still no idea..went to bed then…this is the day~~
Sunday~~youth day for me!! havin fun with rebekah, weiling, derek, ben, daniel, christopher (my youth group) and elizebeth (my master)..they were great…youth are much easier than adult….adult are just too complicated sometime..youth!! not fully adult and yet not a children anymore..so dun treat them as child!! they are simple and straight forward but dun ever expect they will listen to adults all the time :)….they hav their point of view too!! Hmm…they just sometime lazy to raise cause adults won listen..but they gain my respect!! The rest of my day..still trying to get my essay done…no idea at all..still stuck …where should I start?? a bit worry cause will I stuck during exam?? already cant write anything with books and journals…how if close book exam?? sob! sob! well, X factor was the next…followed by msn with youth!! chatting with chris, rebekah and weiling…is my first chat with them..a great new experience…always forgotten they are much younger than me…huh 8 years younger!! but we shared so many songs together…they send me all their favs!! rock!! They off at around 11pm and me get back to essay..ergggggggggg steroid hormones?? That is my essay~~
